life sucks

another of my friend found love this week. before it was my friend in melaka.

i'm happy for you two .really

then a question comes to my mind - what about me?

am i doomed? to be alone?

am i too picky that i cant even find someone that i can......love back?

i dont know if the one for me is already RIGHT INFRONT of me. maybe i'm just too blind to notice?

i'm surrounded by friends, i;m thankfull for that. its just....everyday, mainichi, setiap hari, i feel something missing. its like a hole in the heart, gnawing me from within, threatening to destroy me if i dont fill that hole. what am i supposed to do?

yes i have a reprive, but is it good enough? even a friend i know who is like...the most bleh person in the world, has someone waiting for him, even if he do not know/want/care about the person.

what do i have? WHO do i have?

maybe in the end i'll just be alone. just surrounded by frineds and family. nothing more, nothing less.

what away to life , eh?